trust.

March 15, 2011

Oh, Lord,

Why is it so hard to trust?  Trust that YOU, Creator and Sustainer of everything, are plotting my course, directing my steps?

Why do I doubt and question along the way whether I really want your will for my life?  Why can’t your will also be mine?

It’s because I’m clinging too closely to the things I know.  The things I can see.  And what I see is a whole lot of people making things happen for themselves.  I try to follow suit.  But I always come back to the place where YOU are.  Distraught.  Humbled.  Wishing I had put all of my faith in YOU all along.

Thanks, Lord, for never leaving.  Thanks for welcoming your wayward children with open arms after every time we try to walk on our own and stumble and fall.  Thanks for picking us up, dusting us off, and offering us grace upon grace to bring us back home.

Read these words today that I’ve heard countless times, but they struck me with new sweetness and promise this afternoon:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.  Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord, and turn away from evil.  It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones.”

proverbs 3: 5-8