my portion.

July 13, 2010

Distractions.  All around me.  People, stuff, life.  I am so easily and frequently distracted.

I tend to have great intentions- for the way I spend my time, for how I will choose to live, but those intentions are interrupted by the flashing signs all around me that seem to beg for–or even demand my attention.  And I give in without even trying to put up a fight.

Which reminds me that I am weak. 

I often find myself in the same place as the apostle Paul in Romans, “I do not understand my own actions.  For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.”  (Romans 7:15-16)  I do not want to waste my time.  I do not want to live selfishly and lazily and ignore the Lord’s voice in His Word.  But I do, repeatedly.

But I’m encouraged and strenghtened by a Psalm. 

“Whom have I in heaven but you? 

And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you.

My flesh and my heart may fail,

but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”

Psalm 73:25-26

MY flesh and MY heart will continually fail.  I will continually fail.  I’ll mess up, I’ll get distracted, I’ll sin.  But I’m promised that God can and will be my strength!  If I ask, he will help me to stand firm against the devil and all his distractions.  He will stir in my heart a greater desire for him, and him alone.

My prayer is that I will continue to grow in an understanding of the Lord as my portion.  God is good, and he’s all I truly need.  Lord, help me to stop filling my life up with so many other things!  More of you, less of me.