peace.

September 21, 2010

Today was one of those days.  The kind where I couldn’t quite catch my breath, where I almost felt like I was drowning in the chaos that so often characterizes my life.  My heart and mind raced.  My body was trembling.  I felt so weak.

Chaos, troubled heart, trembling body.  WEAKNESS.  Stress. Anxiety.

It was too much.  I couldn’t think straight, couldn’t find any source of strength in myself.

And when I thought I was about to break, the Lord reminded me of his overhwelming goodness and grace.  It’s amazing what one hour in fellowship with him and a friend will do to calm my crowded, chaotic heart. 

We talked about our relationship to God– his perfections and our total depravity, and I was instantly comforted in the thought that I cannot and will not ever measure up to his standards but that his grace covers me.

Then tonite I had small group.  We talked through the story of Mary and Martha, how the Lord really just desires that we be willing to come and sit at his feet.  An overwhelming sense of peace washed over me.  My God wants me to leave behind the cares and worries of this world and instead to sit and marvel at Him.  That is what he requires.  And I’m thankful.

‎”Acquaint now thyself with Him, and be at peace.”  -A.W. Tozer, The Knowledge of the Holy