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March 31, 2011

Tonite I heard a message that strikes a chord with where I’ve found myself lately.  Thinking about what it means to live a life of radical abandonment to the glory of God.  To repent of self-centeredness, to aim to make Christ the center.  To love Him and love people.

These are simple callings.  They look very different from the law of the Old Testament.  They are straightforward, unadorned.  But simple and easy are two different things.  Christ, who has freely given me grace and abundant life in His name, is asking me to love Him and to love my neighbor as myself.  And I want to.  So why do I find myself in the same place over and over again?  Proclaiming that I want to love and serve God, but living a life that is still very much my own?

Father.

Thank you that you are gracious and slow to anger, abounding in steadfast love.

I am unworthy to be called Yours.  I am unfaithful.  I am selfish.  I am lazy.  I hear what you’re asking me, but more often than not, I do not act obediently in love.

Break me.  Break me of myself.  Let me see your glory, and may it change me deeply.  Bring me to my knees.  Then mobilize me, fill my heart and mouth with praise to You.

I pray that my life would be evidence of the work YOU have done in it.  I can claim nothing good as coming from me.  All glory, honor, power is Yours.